I have battled with my weight for ELEVEN years. I am TWENTY-NINE. I quit figure skating at eighteen and it all went down hill from there. At first it was twenty pounds, twenty turned into forty, forty turned into sixty and before I new it I was ONE HUNDRED pounds OvErWeIgHt!
It took a while but lost it. In 2003, I weighed in at just under 160lbs. Then I quit dieting, quit thinking, quit watching and the scale caught up with me. By the time I got pregnant with my daughter I was up to 180lbs and nine months later I was around 230lbs.
Five years later I weighed the same. Sure I'd lost and gained, lost and gained. In fact, I had probably lost and regained more than one-hundred pounds over half a decade. But the truth was that I topped the scales at two-hundred and thirty pounds and I didn't have a baby to blame it on anymore.
Again, I got back on the wagon. I cut out carbs. I ate meat, meat, meat, and salad. I was doing pretty well and lost a whopping 50lbs in less than three months. I was down to 180lbs, and although that isn't skinny, I felt good. I was wearing a size 12 and no longer got out of breath going up the stairs. More importantly, I found my confidence again. I loved myself, I loved my life, and I appreciated and loved the skin that I lived in. I felt that I had finally gotten a handle on things.
A few months later I met the absolute love of my life. A man who made me melt every time he looked at me, a man who thought I was beautiful, sexy, and confident. A man who loves food as much as I do. I fell off the wagon. I let my appreciation of food get out of hand and found myself in tighter jeans and out of some. I watched as the numbers on the scale climbed and I felt a little less beautiful. I thought about my unhealthy choices and continued to stuff the food in.
Now, I sit here writing my first blog entry staring at the scale looming across the room. It is the thing of my nightmares and my absolute worst enemy. But I am vowing to change that. I want to make it my friend. A companion to keep me on the right track, to help me see the error in my ways and to make sure that I get to where I want to be.
So, here it goes.... My next entry will be my first weigh-in and will describe a little bit about my plan. Be warned I may post several times a day!! I am going to use my blog as a tool to overcome cravings, a way to vent my frustrations, and a place to hopefully inspire others to do what is best for their hearts, their minds and, of course, their bodies.
Cheers and wish me luck!
Tiffany
way to go tiff i am with ya if ya need anything!
ReplyDeleteThanks Jamie!!! I appreciate your support!!! Hope you are well!
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